EPISODE 5: MY SPIRITUAL SEX-CHANGE OPERATION
HOW STEPPING OUT OF OUR CULTURAL GENDER F*CK, AND BALANCING THE MASCULINE AND FEMININE ENERGIES WITHIN, IS THE KEY TO OUR ENLIGHTENMENT
Published 12 November 2018
One of the most painful memories of my youth was being called a woman.
Not a “girly girl” by playmates at school, but an actual woman by a fragrance sample sprayer at the mall at the age of 14 who greeted my friend and I by calling us “Sir and “m’am” as we walked by.
My friend enjoyed it… He was tall, bearded and had developed ahead of his time, I was short, overweight and had unruly puffy hair, meaning she must have been referring to me as the woman.
I won’t lie, this moment scarred me.
As a young gay male you are used to being called “girly girl” by boys your age in the playground but a woman working at the mall should know better, you think.
This marked the beginning of a process which haunted me for most of my adult life as I felt terrified of my lack of masculinity.
One year ago however, as I was ordering coffee while connecting flights at Paris Charles de Gaulle Airport the barista asked me “What can I get you Madame”. His colleague quickly corrected him to “Monsieur!”.
As he handed me the coffee he closed with a gentle “Merci madame!”
This time, I was not only at peace with the comment, but actually honored, privileged and mentally high-fived the lad.
So what happened in the years in between?
The exploration which lead to my new-found comfort with my feminine side is what I like to call my spiritual sex-change operation.
In the past few years, I have awaken to the realisation that by remaining limited to my previous views of gender (a man is a man and a woman is a woman) I was operating at about 50% of the level of consciousness which was available to me, and completely ignoring the other 50%.
It seemed that everywhere I looked there were invitations to begin to explore this.
In this podcast episode I share learnings from many cultures and philosophies around the world to how we can apply them to improve our lives day-today.
From explorations in male tantra, to The house of John of God in
Brazil, to Shamanism, to explorations of the Tao, Of the yin and yang concepts in Feng Shui, to the ancient temple builders who would create sacred sides based on these principles, and the land energy of our Earth and how these two support each other in holding everything in balance.
I will also share suggestions to begin unlocking more harmony in our day-to-day lives as a result of these energies meeting, merging, and supporting each other.
And as usual, there is an additional bonus Guided practice which can take you through a process of expansion via a new understanding of ourselves via these energies.
Stream below or download full transcript pdf here.